I AM ASKING FOR PRAYER FOR I HAVE BEEN IN A VERY BAD (NOT ALL BAD ALL THE TIME) RELATIONSHIP FOR OVER 10 YRS NOW, I HAVE TWO SMALL CHILDREN 6 AND 8 AND I HAVE WATCHED THEM GO THROUGH THE SAME THINGS I HAVE LET MY MAN PUT ME THROUGH FOR YEARS NOW. PLEASE DO NOT GET ME WRONG I AM NO ANGEL EITHER. HE IS A DRINKER, CHEATER AND ABUSER WHEN DRINKING. I FOUND OUT A FEW MONTHS AGO I HAVE CONTRACTED SOME FORM OF A STD. I CAME FORM A CHRISTIAN FAMILY ALTHOUGH I PRAY LISTEN TO CHRISTIAN LIFE FAMILY I HAVE FALLEN OUT FROM UNDER THE COVERING OF MY LORD FOR QUITE SOME TIME I DO NOT FEEL THE CLOSENESS WITH HIM I USED TO HAVE. ALSO PLEASE LET ME SAY I PRAISE JESUS FOR ALL THE BLESSINGS HE HAS BLESSED ME WITH TWO BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN THAT ARE HEALTHY A NICE HOME ALWAYS BLESSING ME US FINANCIALLY I GIVE ALL THE PRAISE TO MY LORD. WHEN I MET MY MAN (AND OH HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM NO MATTER WHAT HE DOES THEN AND NOW EVEN THOUGH I AM QUITE UPSET WITH HIM) HE HAD A DRINKING PROBLEM I JUST FELT LIKE HE NEEDED ME AND I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THERE TO FIX IT!! THAT TYPE OF PERSON. I HAVE TAKEN ON SO MUCH VERBAL, PHYSICAL ABUSE THAT ITI IS UNBELIEVANLE AND I HAVE SAID THIS IS THE LAST TIME FOR THE LAST TIME WAY TO MANY TIMES. BUT ALWAYS BY THE NEXT MORNING I LOVE HIM ANYWAYS. HE IS OUT DRINKING ALL THE TIME IN OUR HOUSEHOLD I FEEL AS THOUGH I DO EVERYTHING FROM CHILDREN TO THE FINANCES EVERYTHING AND WELL AS HE DOES WORK BY DAY HE DRINKS ALL NIGHT. WE HAVE A BUSINESS AND IF ANY SMALL BUSINESS OWNERS ARE READING THIS YOU KNOW THAT THIS IS A 24HR JOB IT IS STRESSFULL AND CAN BE ENOUGH AGONY ALONE BY ITS SELF ON THE OTHER HAND THE PAYOFF AT TIMES HAS REALLY BENN A GOOD BREAD AND BUTTER MAKER FOR US BECAUSE OF THIS I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ABLE TO BE WITH MY CHILDREN DURING THIER YEARS OF BIRTH UP UNTIL THEY STARTED SCHOOL FOR THIS I AM SO GREATFUL.

NOW FOR HTE TRUTH ABOUT ME A CUOPLE OF YEARS AGO HE CAME HOME DRUNK OF COURSE AND WELL SNAPPED ONME INFRONT OF MY CHILD THE OTHER ONE A SLEEP AT THE TIME, TO PUT IT LIGHTLY I WAS SCARED ENOUGH TO RUN OUT THE DOOR WIITH THE KIDS IN FEAR OF MY LIFE AT THE TIME. I MADE IT OUT SIDE HE DEMENDED I COME IN I DID NOT OF COURSE AND HE RAN MY CAR OVER THIS REALLY SCARED ME WHEN I SEEN HE WAS LITTERALLY CRAZY WHEN INTOXICATED WITH ALCHOHOL WELL I SWORE I NEVER COME BACK AND THAT DID NOT EVEN LAST A WHOLE DAY. THIS WAS ABOUT TWO YEARS AGO AND FROM THERE UNTIL NOW THINGS HAVE NOT BEEN NO BETTER I USED TO NEVER LIE TO HIM BUT FOUND IT WAS EASIER TO LIE THEN TO LISTEN TO HIS FOUL MOUTH OR TAKE HIS PUNISHMENT. SO I TOLD ONE LIE THAT TURNEDINTO ANOTHER LIE AND SO FORTH YOU COULD JUST IMAGINE HOW BIG THESE LIES HAVE GOOTEN FOR THE PAST TWO YEARS MIND YOU THESE LIES ARE ALL FINANCIAL LIES I HAVE NEVER CHEATED ON HIM OR EVEN GIVEN HIM A REASON TO THINK THIS. IF I LEAVE THE HOUSE TO GO TO THE STORE I CALL WHEN I LEAVE AND UPON MY ARRIVAL SHOULD HE NOT BE THERE I GO TO VERY FEW FUNCTIONS AT SCHOOL TO AVOID AND QUESTIONING AND THIS MAKES ME SO SAD BECAUSE I SHOULD HAVE WENT AND THERE'S ALOT OF THINGS I SHOULD HAVE DONE BETTER. AFTER I RECEIVED THE NEWS OF MY STD WHAT A WAKE UP CALL IT REALLY GOT ME THINKING WHAT IF I MEAN GOD DOES NOT PROMISE US TOMMOROW NO MATTER WHAT TODAY IS THE ONLY DAY WE KNOW WE TRULY HAVE SO IF I WENT TO THE DR TODAY AND THEY TOLD ME I WAS DYING WOULD REMAIN TO LIVE THIS WAY? NO I WOULD NOT SO WHY WOULD I LIVE THIS WAY NOW ON THE OTHER HAND I THINK WHO I AM THINKING OF MYSELF DO MY CHILDREN NOT NEED THIER FATHER AND THEN OF COURSE I THINK WHAT FATHER HE IS GONE AL THE TIME. I SHOULD HAVE NEVER LIED TO HIM AND NOW I CAN NOT TAKE IT BACK AND IT IS WORSE THAN THAT THIS LIE OULD COST US EVERYTHING. I COULD NOT TAKE THE FACT ANY MORE THAT I HAVE LET THE FEAR OF HIM TURN ME INTO A LIAR. I HEARD ON THE RADIO THE OTHER DAY AND THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE. I HAVE SINCE NOW ON MY THIRD DAY LEFT THIS HOUSEHOLD I PRAY THAT GOD LEADS ME IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION I PRAY THAT I DO NOT LET ANYTHING STAND BETWEEN ME AND MY LORD AGIAN I PRAY THAT MY LORD FORGIVES ME. AND I HAVE NO CLEAR HEAD IF GOD HAD A WORD FOR ME WOULD I EVEN HEAR HIS VOICE IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I FELT HIS PRESENCE WOULD I KNOW IT NOW IF I DID HEAR FORM HIM AGIAN. I KNOW MY LORD WOULD NEVER FOR SAKE ME BUT HAVE I FORSAKEN HIS OTHER CHILD MY MAN? HE BLESSED ME WITH MY FAMILY WHAT HAVE I DONE. I AM NOT SO SURE THAT I EVEN FORGIVE MYSELF. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME PLEASE PRAY THAT THE DEVIL GETS OUT OF THE WAY PLEASE PRAY THAT I HEAR AND LISTEN TO MY LORDS DEMANDS. I LOVE THIS MAN NO MATTER WHAT HE DOES I DO NOT BELIEVE IN MY HEART OF A BROKEN FAMILY I WANT MY CHILDREN TO BE WITH THIER DAD I WANT TO BE WITH THIER DAD BUT IN AN HONEST RELATIONSHIP WHERE I DO NOT FEEL SO CONTROLED THAT IF I LIKE SOMETHING I AM ALLOWED TO SAY IT WITH OUT FEAR THAT I DO NOT SPEND ENDLESS HOURS TRYING TO CATCH HIM DOING THE WRONG THING I AM A MESS RIGHT NOW MY HEAD WILL JUST NOT CLEQR OUT. I NEED TO GET TO CHURCH. IN THE MEANTIME I PRAY FOR ADVICE OF ANY CHRISTINA BELIEVER ANY SIMILAR STORIES I JUST NEED A WORD.

I THANK YOU FOR ANYONE WHO HAS TAKEN A COMPASSIONATE MOMENT TO READ THIS VERY LONG FORUM TOO, GOD BLESS!!

THANK YOU

We're praying for you all. Here is an article if you want to know what the Bible says about Christian Divorce Doctrine.

THANK YOU I FOUND THE ARTICLE TO BE SO HELPFUL. TODAY SEEMS TO BE A BETTER DAY FOR ME THE ARTICLE SEEMED TO BE COMPFORTING TO KNOW THAT I DO HAVE THE RIGHT NOT TO BE ABUSED OR CONTROLLED, TO PROTECT MY CHILDREN FROM LIVING IN AN UNHEALTHY RELATIONSHIP THAT MAY LEAD TO THEM HAVING THE SAME TROUBLE WHEN THEY GET OLDER I WOULD BE SO REGRETFUL IF I DID NOT PUT DOWN MY FOOT AND STAND MY GROUND FOR THEM. THANK YOU.

I will be praying for you. Your situation is a very difficult one. Trust in the Lord and give him your whole heart. He loves you and WILL be there for you. Praise the lord!

Lindsey