I'm a 40 year old mom of 2 small boys. I have a good life, with the exception of a few demons. These would be battling depression, occasional addiction to pain medications and a constant struggle to loose weight.
I have good relationships in my life except with god. Grew up going to church/Sunday school. Believing in the scripture, praying, and had a strong faith.
It was a gradual thing, pulling away from my faith. Stopped going to church. Started questioning god and parts of the bible. I guess the final straw was the Newtown shooting in CT. I asked my dad a very cliche question....what kind of loving god would let all those innocent children be murdered.
Since then, I haven't been able to pray. I feel lost, untethered from Christian guidance, I doubt everything. I also feel guilty.

I want to restore my faith and beliefs but I don't know how.