Hi Prayer Warriors,
I could really use some prayers of hope and guidance, and especially confirmation of God's plan in my life. Although I tried to turn my pain in to purpose, I continue to run in to closed doors, and my emotions and anger have become unbearable. I feel angry all the time, angry that my husband could use me the way he did, angry because I do not understand why I had to be in this situation, angry that I lost all of my money on a lie, angry that he stole 3 years of my life, and angry that he is still in my country.
I found out last week where my husband is living, and that made everything worse because he is still in my city being taken care of, he has it all! And he has not contacted once since he disappeared, almost 2 months... it hurts to know that he did not love me at all, why me?
I arranged a meeting on September 8th in which I have invited 70+ political members to meet victims of marriages of convenience, and the only responses I am receiving are from people saying they cannot come. I am asking for God to please intervene and make this a day that will bring justice to all of the victims, and I am asking that God please make his plan for me clear, as I feel as though I am sitting in a dark room and I have no idea what I am supposed to do. I am also asking that God please find a way to let me know why I ended up with a husband like that, why did that happen to me????? Am I not lovable or was this a part of a bigger plan? I want my husband deported, but the Government will not do anything, how do I live my life with his here, free, after all of the horrible things he did to get here? How can I ever be free of my anger this way?
Please pray for my life!
May God bless all of you.