Hi,
I'm new here..I have been a strong Christian for a few years now, but lately I have strayed away from God, not in a big outward way but I can tell I don't have the same close relationship with him as I used to:) I have always had issues with loving myself, some of it stems from being molested when I was a child and also when I was older...and now since I am older I have more problems that has brought my low self esteem back out..I have been depressed lately because the house I have been living in for about 7 years, needs remodeling and the kitchen is just falling apart, and it's still not finished (my husband procrastinates) the disorganization makes me feel horrible..anyway, along with that I don't have any friends really that I hang out with and that makes the depression worse not having anyone to talk to. Ever since I can remember I have had problems with eating disorders, when I was younger I was anorexic for many years, then I had issues with compulsive overeating,then back to anorexia, and now the compulsive overeating has come back to haunt me again..I need prayer because I feel so horrible when I overeat, it makes me so sad and to deal with all of the other issues on top it makes it so much harder..what drives me crazy is that I help everyone else with their problems and even help them on their diets but I can't even help myself..I have alot of self hate..I just want to learn to love myself..I know God can help me from this:) Thanx for listening:)