I Think I Might Be Gay. Will God Be Mad At Me? Options

[JesusLuvsMeLongT...]

I've had anal sex several times but I'm still on the fence about all of this. It feels alright but all the lube and toys you have to buy really add up. Will god strike my penus down if I'm gay? I know if you want to steal you are supposed to cut off your hand. Should I chop off my genitals because I'm stealing a young boy's innocence?