hi, my name is dino,,,and is there anyone who can help me... i cant find my god, my life is filled with anger and bitterness, the only thing that that is preventing me from suicide is hell, three years ago ,ive been praying for a wife, and a word came from father, not by power nor by might, but by my spirit says the lord, i meditated on this for some time, and then boom i fell hopeless in love, with a wonderfull greek woman, we had a relationship for two years, and then all of a suden it ended, for the first time i was at peace, believing that god had answerd my prayer, i rested in the rrelationship, even at times it seemed to be going rough, but my trust was in my god, then one day it ended, its almost a year, and the tears still whelm up inside of me, i know i have no right to blame god, but for some reason, i blame god, saying father but i trusted you, and you let me down, i believed in you and you let me down, i feel that all the trust and faith i had in god,is now null and void, i really am stuggling to pray, i have no desire to be with god, or his people, im messing around, drinking myself to a stupa on most night, and i have no tollerance towards my staff my family, friends, even myself, i can trully see my life spiraling downward, but some how i cant trully let go, i am so hurt, the tears dont stop, and im getting to a point where i feel insanity is going to over take me.. please help me.....
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