Hello:::
I know how this can feel & I have been through the ravages of despair and disappointment of thinking I'm never going to be ''alone'' again, only to end up on my own once again..
That is where I am right now and I have been so for seven years and there probably hasn't been a solitary month go by that I haven't cried out for the distress of it all. I gave up ''dating'', and have devoted myself solely to God and though I try with all of my strength not to be afraid or feel unlovable, I fail during those points in the month where I am most vulnerable emotionally.. I am never content with this solitary state and yet what is the alternative, turn my back on what I know God asks of me, what He requires after He, unlike every guy in my life has PROVEN Himself worthy of my trust and my total loyalty -- that's not an option!!
I know also that it in those times of feeling dreadfully ALONE that it just doesn't seem that God has heard our desire and taken it seriously, but what other hope is their of being truly loved??? I have learned from my past experiences with the opposite sex that unless the Lord builds the house they that labor do so in vain.. There just isn't any close second to God's Love and Unity in a relationship and so I WAIT.. And I pray that while God is working this to your good that you will WAIT, not for a guy but FOR YOUR LORD!! and I ask that you pray for me as well..
In Sisterly Love and with true understanding
dani
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...Wherever He Leads Me ... I Shall Follow...
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