I have been raped a few weeks ago and i feel as though i have no control of my life anymore. I recoil everytime someone touches me, and i feel helplessly lost when it comes to my emotions. It feels as though my boyfriend still wants me to be intimate with him, but since the rape, i don't want anyone getting close to me, not even him. The person who raped me was a good friend of mine i met my second term of college and what i didn't know was that he was a pervert. He was so different than who i thought he was... he was disgusting. He wanted me do degrading things but i obeyed because i was afraid of what he might do to me if i didn't. My boyfriend gave me enough strength to go see the doctor, but that is as far as i got. I feel as though no one around me understands what i'm going through and i'm afraid that if i tell them, they won't even care. I cry almost every night because i am starting to hate all the guys i know, and my friends are oblivious of the confusion i am in. I need help from God to get me though this. Thank you.

prayer for u as you ask. myself and my family will be praying for you. may god help u swiftly in this terrible time. and i know ur scared, but if u havent notified the police u really should. i know somebody who that happened to and never told the cops and they are still afraid years after that that person is going to somehow find them and do something again.

goodbye and godbless.

Shalom

My dear, my prayers are with you. I pray that God will give you the strength to realize that you are an amazing person. Remember that you deserve all the goodness that God intends for you. Sometimes things happen in our life that we don't understand, but God has a reason for everything. Just remember, God loves you.

KittyHawk99, I am praying for you. God will see you through this difficult time. Continue to talk with God about this situation and He will give you the strength to carry on. It would also help if you sought some Christian counseling so that others can reach out to help you. You are not alone.

I am praying very hard for you in this rough time you are having. I know exactly how scary and confusing this situation can be, and believe me, I understand that it is not easy to tell anyone about it. In thinking of God, think also about the fact that it is not ALL men who did this to you. Just because this one was not right does not mean that they are all like that. I know it is hard to look at any male the same, and it takes time to feel comfortable with even the thought of anyone touching you again. Trust in the Lord throughout this time. All you need to do is talk and he will hear every word you say. When this happened to me I did not know the lord, and it took me so long to tell anyone about it.
The person that did this to me did it because I told him that I was not ready to have sex with him (I was young and had never had sex before). He told me that if I told anyone he would kill me or someone I cared for. He use to drive past my house constantly after it happened, and I would see him outside of my high school more times than I could count. He came to my job, called my cell phone, and even followed me when I was on my way places. He hardly ever approached me on these occasions, but said he did this to make sure I wasn't going to the police or tell any of my family (whom I am very close to). He said he wanted to
"remind me" of what happened, and what he would do. He did this for a few years, but eventually he did it less and less. I never did go to the police, and eventually the time in which I could have elapsed, and he stopped showing up places and calling. I still have nightmares about it sometimes, and my mind, before I knew God, was still in some fear of that man and what he could do. I still find myself wondering if he'll find me again... if he'll show up somewhere... if he's still watching me.
The important thing to remember, though, is that now I DO know the Lord, and he has eased that fear. I know the he is forever watching over me, and he will let no harm befall me ever again. I have a good, supportive boyfriend who has been there for me every step of the way. He has shown me that not all men are like that, and that I don't have to be scared of anything with the Lord and he by my side. The fear WILL go away, and you WILL be able to let others touch you, because they do it with love and the Lord will show you that. Keep your faith strong in God, and always remember that he will NEVER leave your side. I tell you my story so you know that there is someone out there who understands exactly how you feel and what you are going through. My prayers will be with you.

Praise the Lord,

Lindsey

Dear Kittyhawk99, I sincerely sympathize with you during this very difficult time and to some extent i understand your pain because I have been sexually molested before by a family friend when I was in teens. My prayers are with you. I know the God who healed my physically and emotionally will do the same to you. I will also encourage you to seek christian counseling through your church which will be a tremendous help. I wish you the very best and remember Jesus loves you very much and he is there to see you through.

Much love
Taykems