Guilt Options

[Jc1982]

I have lived in sin most of my life without even realizing it. I was addicted to pornography for a long time even after I was married. It caused a lot of problems in my marriage when I started chatting with people online and engaging in cyber sex after a while my guilt became to much and I confessed everything to my wife, my parents and even our pastor which was not an easy thing to do. My wife and I have been trying to mend our marriage and I've been doing really well in my walk win God, but recently I became week and went into an online chat. During the online chat I felt as if God yelled at me and it startled me, I immediately realized what I was doing and stopped and started praying to God to help me and forgive me. He stopped me mid sentence and said "do you love your family?" I replied yes Lord. "He said you would die for them wouldn't you?" I said of course I would. " He said, so you will die for your family but you won't stop doing this?" and it hit me like a ton of bricks, all desires were gone. I now had those words to cling to in the future. I was unsure if I should tell my wife, because it would make me feel better but would destroy what little trust she has started to gain back for me. I feel like god said, " Would it make her feel better? I said no lord. And in my heart I feel like he said, you're forgiven, get over yourself and just stop doing it. I was just wanting to see if anyone had any thoughts on this?

[Mightytosave]

I applaud you for making the changes in your life that sets you truly free from satan's bondage. The internet is tempting place that ruins marriages every day. It is better to get rid of you computer completely and go to the library to use one that to have something in your home that could destroy your family if the temptation becomes to great.

God will always encourage you to be completely honest. Any secret you keep from your spouse has the potential to come back on you. If she really loves you she will appreciate your honesty and she will know she can trust you to tell her the truth even when it's hard. However should she somehow find out on her own, it will damage the trust she is placing back in you. You can never go wrong being completely honest, a woman needs above all else to have the security of faith in her husband. In always being 100% transparent satan then has nothing to hold over on you or to make you make you feel guilty with later.

Best of luck to you and your family