Hi C, I thought I was the only one who felt like that. I just joined today and I had to write to you. I have contemplated death also but I know it is the greatest sin and I dont really believe I have the courage to do that. I lock myself in a spare bedroom in my house andfind myself climbing walls out of desperation and looking for a solution. Maybe knowing my situation you might feel better about your life. My best friend was murdered July 9, 2007, I am losing my business, I have already lost my huse to the bank I have no money to move elsewhere we have two children at home, I just got out of the hospital something is wrong with my colon I need more test I can hardly eat I vomit almost everything, my marraige is falling apart, I have a 3 million dollar debt to an insurance company that is most likely going to have me arrested, and my oldest son has been on the streets for the past three years on drugs. Can you beat this????? I do have food in my refrigerator and my kids are happy and healthy they have no idea what I am living oh, and my husband is loving....... Yet I just want to die and leave like a coward.....
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Connie
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