hi everybody I'm new here so if i'm wrong plz correct me here is my story brief: a while ago i met a girl who were seemed nice to me and was trying to make connection, so I go to her and asked her to know each other better soon we were gone to love each other after a while I saw she is not listenting or paying any attention and everytime I turned angry she called and saying I'm sorry,... one day i saw it's not gonna work thus I left her and didn't answered her messages but on the 3rd day I saw her waiting on yahoo chat for me , then I felt like my heart is crashed thinking she's dying for me and me stupid treat her like ...., and then she called and speaked like she was cying . then we got freind again and this was continued over a year when she travelled to another city we had relations still but I saw she even not mentioning me even as a friend anymore so I go there and tried my best to show her that I love her. but after a while she rejected my calls & herself showed her new boyfriend to my sister.
so what is my problem: you know I'm a virgin I even never had a girlfriend but her. I had never drinked any alchoholic drink until this hapening and I think I was a good guy. so why this thing happened to me? I know god has nothing to do with that girl. but at least couldn't he punish her or make me feel better? (I even go for sacrifice 8 times) I prayed for a year while my hand was shaking of angriness,... but Only I got was that "having car accident 2times", "breaking my leg while was trying to help my grandmother", "having my hdd+ it's backup burned 3 times"(I'm a web designer),... the only miracle happened to me was how survived sacrifices holding electrical cable 220v in my hands but it just shaked me sleeping in a room with closed window and gas valve open but i only got a headache?
plz tell me what's wrong? at least pray god for me to let me die and get ride of this pain (besides sorry my english)
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