QUOTE(TrustHisWill @ Aug 1 2006, 04:16 AM)
Hi Prayer Warriors,
I could really use some prayers of hope and guidance, and especially confirmation of God's plan in my life. Although I tried to turn my pain in to purpose, I continue to run in to closed doors, and my emotions and anger have become unbearable. I feel angry all the time, angry that my husband could use me the way he did, angry because I do not understand why I had to be in this situation, angry that I lost all of my money on a lie, angry that he stole 3 years of my life, and angry that he is still in my country.
I found out last week where my husband is living, and that made everything worse because he is still in my city being taken care of, he has it all! And he has not contacted once since he disappeared, almost 2 months... it hurts to know that he did not love me at all, why me?
I arranged a meeting on September 8th in which I have invited 70+ political members to meet victims of marriages of convenience, and the only responses I am receiving are from people saying they cannot come. I am asking for God to please intervene and make this a day that will bring justice to all of the victims, and I am asking that God please make his plan for me clear, as I feel as though I am sitting in a dark room and I have no idea what I am supposed to do. I am also asking that God please find a way to let me know why I ended up with a husband like that, why did that happen to me????? Am I not lovable or was this a part of a bigger plan? I want my husband deported, but the Government will not do anything, how do I live my life with his here, free, after all of the horrible things he did to get here? How can I ever be free of my anger this way?
Please pray for my life!
May God bless all of you.
Hi
Your user name is TrustHisWill. That's a great name and a great thought. We don't always know why hurtful things happen to us (I know because I've had one of them happen to me today too) but what we must not neglect in our walk with Him is that we HAVE to forgive. No matter what he's done, YOU have to forgive him. When Jesus taught us to pray the Lord's Prayer, He goes back and amplifies one single aspect of the whole prayer, and that's the part about forgiving. Now I know it hurts because its so unfair and you feel used and forsaken - but that's a good place to be because at times like that He wants to be your comfort and your shield. This is my first time here and immediately my heart goes out to you although you're a complete stranger. I agree together with you that He will make it all clear to you and that you'll be the stronger for it too. May He hold you now in your sorrow and disillusionment and may you feel the beat of His heart. Be still and it will dawn on you that He's committed Himself to be your husband, your friend, your guide (shepherd) and your provider. He loves you so much that He does not only know your name and your sorrow, but He knows the very hairs on your head because He's numbered them individually. Isn't that a grand thought! You're special to Him, if not to anyone else. I make time tonight to hold you before the Lord and I know that He'll be with you because He's the Great Comforter too. Bless you so much because I'm with you right now in prayer.