Hello Lonely Lamb it sounds to me like you may know the Bible somewhat but do not Know Jesus. You need to follow this short prayer; (Jesus Come into my life and help me.) If you just said that then Jesus has came into your life. If you feel you dont need to say it then there may be something in your life not quite right. You see being a christain is haveing a relationship with Jesus. not just going to church and fellowship with other christains.
Many people call theirselves Christains but never invite Jesus into there life. To be a Chrsitain means that you actually take on the name of Christ Like in one of his parrables he teaches we are the bride of Christ You must act like He is your number one priority in life.
John 3.16-18 says For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
3:17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
John 3:18 He that believes in what he has to say is not condemned:
The scripture says through Jesus we might be saved . Here again verse 18 says Believe in what Jesus has to say. We need to read the Bible ourselves to see what Jesus has to say to us.
John 1:12 But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God
1:32 And John bare record, saying, I saw the Spirit descending from heaven like a dove, and it abode upon him.
1:33 (a) And I knew him not: (
but he that sent me to baptize with water, © the same said to me, (d)Upon whom you shall see the Spirit descending, and remaining on him, (e) the same is he which baptizes with the Holy Ghost.
In the Book of Luke 3.16 it also says Jesus will baptize us with the HolySpirit and fire. What you need is to ask Jesus to baptize you with the HolySpirit and fire. That is where you get the ability to know more on how to function as he would have you to do. And in the which you obtain the power to understand what to say to your children and your husband inorder for them to believe that God is for real as well.
May the Lord Jesus bless you and Your loved ones and save all.