Hi Aktor1... This is my first time on this site... I have visited a few web sites on grief from a divorce and prayers of serenity that have comforted me during this past year and a half... My marriage of 26 years ended in a divorce December 20. 2005. My husband had left in March of 2005 as soon as my doctor gave me the great news that my cancer was in remission. I came home a few weeks later from a doctor's appointment to find all of his clothes gone. I was devasted. I was left to raise a 18 year old son and soon to be 17 year old daughter and i was trying to recover from a year of chemo for Non-hodgkins lymphoma... I literally wanted to die at that point... I had fought so hard and basically in silence because i felt i had to be strong for everyone around me. And now he was gone... No it had not been a perfect marriage for the last 10 years, financial hardships, raising kids and my husbands job was very demanding even thou he loves it.. It was our choice for me to be a stay home mom.. Then i find myself, alone, scared, and devasted by the shock of him leaving... Everytime i think i'm making progress to overcome this grief, it starts all over again. I can see something that triggers a happy memory and all the hurt comes back. Over the past year and a half, my ex has succeeded in turning my son against me. I secured all his college scholarship money and grants, and he still wont answer my phone calls... My heart literally aches to hear my son's voice on the phone and all i get is his voice mail. My psychologist says, dig your heels in, dont back up, dont beg, he (my son) will come around when he actually see how much you love him and what you've done for him. So long story short, I not only lost my husband, i've lost my son too... My daughter, Micah, is a senior and will be gone to college in less than a year now and I will be totally alone.. Please pray I find Peace.... Thats all i want... You will be in my prayers and i'm going to continue reading posts tonight so ya'lls discussions will be more familiar to me... Prayers and hugs, Renee
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